Wow! 6 days to go! :)

I promised before that i was going to tell you guys how i decided that i wanted to go on a mission. well here it is:

Life was going great but I felt like I had hit a wall! I had a job and it was great I was having fun and making good money, my grades were getting better and I was getting over my school slump that I was in. Then one day it started to hit me. I was sitting alone in my apartment watching conference Oct 2011 and it seemed like everything was talking about Missionary Work. At that moment I was completely against going on a mission. I thought that it was just for those women that didn't get married. At that moment I completely threw the idea out of my head. I had a few other small instances where I felt that i should be going on a mission but I always said no... I didn't want to go on a mission and I was completely blocking that idea from my mind. Then one day I was sitting in sacrament meeting and there were really great talks being given! Again I got the feeling that I should be going on a mission or I will miss out on a great opportunity. I felt like god was telling me it was my decision, but he wasn't going to be able to"ok heavenly father i'll go on a mission" For the closing hymn we started signing "i'll go where you want me to go" and I just broke down crying! My roommate asked me why I was crying and I just turned and told her, "it's cause I don't want to go on a mission". She laughed and gave me a hug. Of course now i'm really excited but it's funny how our heavenly father has things planned for us, even though we ourselves don't know yet. I'm so grateful for the gospel and the blessings it's brought to my life, and i'm excited to share it with the people of Russia!